The Love I Lost, the Love I gained

Illustration by Nayda Pirela

And so there will be no more letters of

Woe, no more cards of comfort or

Encouragement, no more expressions of

Love, no more planning special dinners.

There will be no more waiting up and

Listening for his car……hoping that maybe

Today will be the day that he really wants/

Needs to be with me and actually comes.

And someday there will be no more tears

On my pillow and no desiring and wanting

Something that is NOT FOR ME.

No more seeking temporary pleasures….and

Someday I won’t hurt so much and maybe

I’ll even stop thinking about him and her

And him and me….but for right now I can’t

See beyond my hurt and I can’t stop the tears.

Grief hangs close and heavy as my friend.

But I know that someday I’ll be a real bride

And I’m anticipating that day or night

(actually I hope it’s dawn) when the Lord

Calls me and ever so gently takes my hand –

Oh how sweet, how secure, how protected I’ll be!

He’s just making final preparations for me;

Building me a mansion and even paving the

Street of pure gold. He’s getting me ready,

Building my trust, refining my character, teaching

Me patience, teaching me to love as he loves me –

Unconditionally – completely!!! He’s getting my

Heart right and he’s even keeping all these

Tears in a bottle for me. When he receives me

He’ll break the bottle and wash me thoroughly….

No more tears,

No more sorrow,

JOY UNSPEAKABLE!!