Remaining in the shadows I peek out
Just to take a glance
Not that he’ll ever know……
Not that I’ll ever admit that somewhere
Deep inside me there’s a little of him
Who lately gets in the way……
Invading my dreams I keep wishing
And hoping for something that I will
Never have – something that is not for me.
I want to touch him one more time
I need that chance to, without words,
communicate what my heart doesn’t
Want to admit to……like a vapor, he’s gone
And maybe he never was here
I swear I conjured him up to meet
A need that I needed then, now, tomorrow……
It seems my heart never gives up
Tender, open, my mind closed
To rationale – to practicality
I should have been more careful, I should
Have known better than to venture out.
Maybe I didn’t realize just how selfish he was
Or maybe it’s because he is unattainable
That I continue to want him……silly me!
He played his cards just right …….the
Jokes on me. He trumped me – game over.
I never saw it coming.
Today I can’t seem to get my mind together
Can’t seem to push back on all that memory
Stuff
It seems I’m tripping myself up – facing
The wrong direction – refusing to move toward
The sun where life is simple and good
Where there are no complications – a place
Where I’m one with nature
Receiving the oxygen I need
To breathe deeply and freely once again.
Leaving behind the muck and mire of things
I don’t understand – of confusion and doubt
And yet I’m alive and because of life I have
Hope. I need only to hold on just a little longer
I need only to take that giant step out of
The shadow and into a space where the air
Is clean and fresh welcoming a new day.
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Just breathe through THAT moment and then the next and the next . . .