It’s My World of Fantasy

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Sometimes when I think about him

I get really sad

Knowing the reality that I will never fully

Be able to experience him

And he\’ll never fully know me in

The way I want him to

Today I’d like to dazzle him with all

My energy.

I’d like to dance for him, to tease him,

To experience what it would be like

To have him watch me

Expressing myself to the world at first

And then to him privately

I will never be able to celebrate the

Newness of us or scream to the world

That something wonderful is happening

Inside me

And indeed

Something wonderful IS happening inside me,

Something wild and uncontrollable

A volcano-like energy simmering, heating…….

Ready to EXPLODE!!

My selfish mind won’t let my spirit settle

And suddenly I’m thirsty for more…..

I can’t see him but I feel him near me. I

Quiver from the nearness of him…yet

Much too far away. I wet my lips I can almost taste

Him

Like chocolate ice cream, like rainbow

Candy…..SWEET…..satisfying,

Can’t get enough…..

Just for a moment in time, I’d like to have what

I dream of,  experiencing the nicety of him

………experiencing me.

No words to express, only touching and

Soaking up the feeling and letting

Him take me to that special place

Only we can go.

A place beyond the here and now where

There are no rules, no restrictions, no

Thoughts that reach beyond that very time of us

And then reality sets in and once again

I’m sad because as quietly as it’s kept

I know the reality and I’m forcing my

Mind to stay current and I’m beating my

Mind and body into submission…

Shadows of dreams fading. Visions of him

almost gone….

Its my world of fantasy