Coping

Illustration by Nayda Pirela

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Thought I’d go crazy when he left me.

There seemed to be no end to the pain and tears.

Pain that use to wake me up at night screaming.

Couldn’t scream out the pain,

Couldn’t cry out the pain,

Couldn’t do nothing but pray…..

Couldn’t think nothing past one hour.

Thought I wouldn’t make it.

Thought I’d wake up not being me,

Yeah, it was a long hard struggle and

Growth came much too slow.

Thought I’d die waiting for that man to return.

I could almost taste his presence here with

Me……….never to happen. Time being

All to faithful, how dare it continue to move on.

Who knows how many years have passed.

All I can say is that the years seem like forever,

But the Lord – yeah, the Lord.

After the storm I am able to see him more

Clearly and trusting him comes so naturally.

What is this love thing that makes you

Act like a fool?

Glad it happened in my youth.

Wouldn’t have had the strength to endure

Such pain now…….now, there is still love,

But very little pain. A little bit of joy creeps

Up in me sometimes. A little bit of strength

Permeates through every now and then and

I realize that it’s God in me working both

To will and to do of his good pleasure.