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Broken Promises

I always wanted to be a big sister
Life graced
Me with being a big sister to "My Little
Big Brother"

"My Little Big Brother" because he was always 
Larger than life in my eyes
I adored him, I carried him first in my
Arms and inevitably in my heart…..
He remains with me always

At one point he became an appendage to 
My being - you saw me, you saw him

He laughed a lot, he energized every
Environment he found himself in.

Rumor has it that he had secrets - fears
He did not share
He compartmentalized his life
Always kept things separate.
It didn’t matter, I still loved him all the same

"My Little Big Brother"

His name remains on my mirror
Amongst the names of those I pray 
For every morning. 
My heart won’t let me take it down
I worried about him 
I made him promise me that he would be alright
(as if it were up to him)
He broke that promise that Sunday 
Morning early in February
Somehow he slipped away
The world’s a little darker these days
Clouds drifting in and out much too 
Often 

If only I could cry away the sadness
If only, If only, 

A horse drawn carriage 
Releasing of the doves 
My heart heavy
Liquid sunshine 
Evaporating much too quickly 

"My Little Big Brother" 
That part of me that I held close 
To my heart - gone just like that 

“Whereas ye know not what shall be on the morrow. What is your life? For ye are a vapor that appeareth For a little time, and then vanisheth away” James 4:14

4 Responses

  1. Precious memories. I remember Pernell well as a child. Still laughing over some of his antics🤣. Though I didn’t see him often as an adult, I will remember his infectious good nature and ready smile. When that many co-workers and neighbors show up at ur homegoing to share a story, a song, a memory, you have truly touched lives and made a difference.

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