And so it was…..

I can’t even remember a time when he loved me –

Why can’t I remember the fun times?

Did I just imagine that there were those times?

I only remember me loving him, and always

Wanting more from him, of him

Him – distant – so far from me.

Always off to the next thing, always pushing

To be somewhere else, somewhere more

Important

He promised there would be time for us

And yet he left me long before I realized

The time had passed.

Long before I had the chance to accept the

Emptiness that tugged at my heart

My heart broke each time he didn’t show up

I waited and waited

Disappointment became my closest friend

I couldn’t accept that he was gone

And so I waited and waited

I wanted more of him, I needed more of us

He wanted, he needed………but not me

I can’t even remember a time when he loved me

Was there such a time? Or did I also imagine that?

Raindrops on roses………